Welcome to My Journey
I’ve been fighting a quiet battle with depression for as long as I can remember. It’s not that I’ve never experienced joy—I’ve had moments of happiness here and there—but my default state seems to be sadness, shaped by years of physical and mental abuse that left me unsure about who I am, and what I’m capable of being or feeling. I don’t always know what makes me happy, or if true happiness is even possible for a broken 48-year-old…but, I’m ready to try.
This blog is my first step. I want to understand what it means to feel whole—beyond the fleeting contentment or the rare spark of excitement. That’s why I’ll be exploring six core areas of life that I believe can guide me toward healing and self-discovery: Environmental, Physical, Social, Mental/Intellectual, Spiritual, and Emotional needs. I suspect that by paying attention to each aspect, I might begin to untangle the threads of my depression and figure out what genuine happiness could look like.
I’m not pretending this will be easy or that I have any special wisdom to share. But if you’ve ever felt lost, confused about what you need, or uncertain whether real happiness is even within reach, I hope you’ll walk alongside me. Let’s explore, experiment, and learn together. Maybe, in doing so, we’ll find that a life touched by hope and possibility is still waiting for us
My Mission
My mission isn’t just to “find happiness”—because honestly, I’m not sure I even know what that means. Instead, my goal is to understand myself, to explore what truly makes life feel worth living, and to see if there’s a way to shift my default from emptiness to something closer to peace.
By focusing on my environment, body, relationships, mind, spirit, and emotions, I want to see if changing the way I engage with the world can change the way I feel inside. Maybe happiness isn’t something that just happens—maybe it’s something you build. I’ll be trying different approaches, challenging old beliefs, and questioning whether the things I’ve been taught about joy, purpose, and self-worth are actually true.
This blog is part of that process. I’m sharing my experiences—the good, the frustrating, the uncomfortable—because I know I’m not the only one who feels this way. If you’ve ever felt stuck, if you’ve wondered whether it’s even possible to feel whole, then maybe this space can be something meaningful for both of us. I don’t know what I’ll find, but I do know that trying to find a better way has to be better than staying lost.
